We all spend too much of our lives thinking about what may have been. Yet you chose your path. you were given that much and it is the definition of free will however narrow the choice happens to be. Such contemplations though are usually good entertainment at least and we usually do not dwell too long on the nasty parts. remember just how little we really remember. Somehow i learned early to look forward and remember only what i needed then. That will surprise you a few times. I even recall struggling with a type problem in first year calculus and then a year later, never looking at it again, showing another first year student easily just how to solve that type of problem. curious. my take home is that our memory, or at least my memory can jump back and forth through TIME and efficiently pick my points. this surely means a lot. Inspect your own memories for any such behavior.